L-O-neliness? a state of being alone just? nah !!! more than the real mean of it.. I have experienced it many times .. At time when my friends left me alone to study.. because 2 friends were busy with their wedding celebrations and remaining 2 were busy cause of shifting and i was all alone to say that "I am present" .. , to note down the lectures.. to see my cell again again during lecture that is there any msg for giggling .. to walk out/in alone from/in the class room ..alone to highlight all the topics for test.. FEEL the loneliness ....
And right now (at 2:21 am) like every night em in the same state of loneliness, which is created by myself... i was running away from my friends .. because i didn't want to share the feelings and change, which is now inside me after the break up of my engagement.. didn't want to show that now em not like the cool, chit chatter and jolly girl anymore with a fear that they make fun of me that "It is not You .. stop acting".. and for this i stopped myself to reply every msg of my friends or reply them with a delay, avoided to speak up in the gatherings and the things like that .. and finally accomplished the target .. now friends are here but no more gossips.. no more joke cracking ... It is damn true that friends (and family of course) are the only one who can K-ILL the L O neliness...!!!!!
And right now (at 2:21 am) like every night em in the same state of loneliness, which is created by myself... i was running away from my friends .. because i didn't want to share the feelings and change, which is now inside me after the break up of my engagement.. didn't want to show that now em not like the cool, chit chatter and jolly girl anymore with a fear that they make fun of me that "It is not You .. stop acting".. and for this i stopped myself to reply every msg of my friends or reply them with a delay, avoided to speak up in the gatherings and the things like that .. and finally accomplished the target .. now friends are here but no more gossips.. no more joke cracking ... It is damn true that friends (and family of course) are the only one who can K-ILL the L O neliness...!!!!!
